I am missing my mother

I really miss my mother. After my elementary graduation, she decided to work abroad to seeks for greener pasture. She has to work as caregiver for she thinks that this is the only way that she can finance our family needs. She is a teacher here in our country but due to financial crisis and the expensive way of living, she needs to work overseas. This is no longer an option for our family, so even if it hurts to see her see go we cannot do otherwise. It is now expensive to go to college, so in order for me and my brother to have a brighter future and continue our education, we need to sacrifice a lot. She told us that in order for us to eat three times a day and buy what we want, she has to go. I can still remember that day, I really cried a lot. I can even remember my brother hugging me.   


Growing up without a mother is not really easy. I envy my classmates who have good relationships with their mothers. They can share their secrets and ask for advice. Although we always send emails and she calls often still there is a huge gap that I feel within me. It has been years and we have been living a good life. But still I do not feel contented. I do not want these things, I just want my mother. But despite the sadness, I have to put up a strong façade for our family. I have to remain strong for I don’t want my mother to feel additional pain for leaving us already. My birthday is not complete for I do not have a mother to cook my favourite spaghetti. Our Christmas is not great either because we are not complete. But still we always receive presents from our mother. I still treasure the gifts she has given me on my birthday. One particular gift that I really like is the Heart Shaped Trinket Box. I also gave her personalized wood signs with cute designs. I bought it online in a store where they sell cheap bridesmaid gifts and unique groomsmen gifts. 


Soon her contract will end and I told her that she will not go back in working abroad. My brother and I decided that it is about time for her to enjoy her life her with us. Since we are already graduates, we can now support her in return. I think we really need to catch up and have mother daughter bonding.